I
recently got my results from the University of London examination office…The
weeks before then I was super anxious, worried, excited...Let’s just say I was
going through torrents of different emotions and the feeling kept getting
better and worse as the De-day ;Thursday, August 16th 12.00 GMT+ 3
drew nearer.
Waiting
for any form of news can weigh heavily on you; the best way is definitely to
keep yourself busy to avoid tearing your brain out all in the name of anxiety!
However that too is easier said than done, those are the days when the cosmic
signs are all in tune with that one thing you wish not to think of! For most
part of early August every single file I looked at while at work seemed to
remind me of the final exams or the impending results. There really was nothing
much I could do other than wait and see….
I can
remember at least 125 exams I have sat for in my lifetime. Thanks to 8-4-4,
siting an exam is not much that big a deal this side of the Sahara. You would
consider that after having sat that many exams, I should have my feelings
whatever the form in check; how wrong you are, all I could register was that
the previous examination results might not be as instrumental in shaping the
next step of my life as this one was!
NLP
and goal setting have definitely made me a better person, after going through
the roll coaster of emotions, I finally was at ease once I sat down with pen and
paper in my hand and wrote down the possible outcomes and my recourse of action
if a) I passed and b) I failed. After the reality check I was ready for either
outcome.
From
August 14th to the morning of the result notification, I can hardly
recall who I spoke to or emailed other than former classmates, lecturers or a
select few family members who knew the exact date of the release of the
outcomes. It did cross my mind a couple of times to go into hibernation mode
and avoid all the hullaballoo until I knew for certain what the verdict was,
but then again, life continues despite it all and here I was still needed to
report to work and perform…
As
you may or may not remember, August 16th was a sunny day but I was
for obvious reasons feeling quite chilly. I recall my mother asking me
severally that morning if I was feeling particularly unwell. She obviously had
no clue what today was and I was not going to remind her and have both of us
pondering all morning! When I got to work the net was down and the lights kept
going on and off…this just meant that
the normal morning rush would be today a slooooow one as fate would have it.
The
minute of reckoning did arrive, the portal was ready and I purposely threw in
my student card in my bag the night before to help remember the nine digit SRN
number and candidate number-trust me I was not taking chances on relaying on
the brain at such an exhilarating moment!
Someone
once told me that it is impossible to define who you are and who you are to
become based on an exam which probably lasted a couple of hours. It is true
however that sometimes passing an exam can lead you to another journey as a new
door opens but one should never lose focus on what their ultimate goal was even
if you fail. Several of us have failed hopelessly before and will continue to
do so in other areas of our live too, but if we mop and wallow, we change nothing!
Thomas Edison for instance did not lose hope even when he failed in over 900
attempts to create a long-lasting electric light bulb! I am not sure I know
very many people who would take even ten attempts and still have the courage,
hope and desire to keep trying! T A Edison is today remembered for developing
several devices that have greatly influenced our lives as we know it! Thanks to
his persistence!
So
you must be wondering…what my outcome was? -It has definitely taken some time
of getting used to officially add the title of Lawyer to my name!
